My sister is making me do it- 8 random things about me

1. My kids and hubby are my life

2. I am a big family show fanatic!

3. I have never done drugs-YAHHHHHH for me(although there are many other things I am not proud of)

4. I had my twins when I was 16.

5. I love watching my boys play baseball.

6. I love to see my daughters smile.

7. I love Chocolate!

8. I am on a diet right now and so feel like I am not getting anywhere.

Okay so that is 8 random things about me!

TIRED!!

After our busy weekend we had also a busy memorial day! We took the kids to the lake and cooked out. They swam in the lake and then we ate. Then the boys went fishing with Billy while I took the girls to the play ground. After we left there we had to come home and take a bath and get ready and the boys had a baseball game at 8 last night so of course we did not get home till around 10:30 or later. But the boys did awsome, while they did not win it was liked they did . They played the undeafeated team and only lost by one and really gave them a run for their money so that was awsome! So that was our weekend and memorial day. Now we have to start the week and try and get things done. :)

WOW what a weekend!!!

BOy this weekend has been busy busy busy! Friday night my mom kept my two youngest ones while we took the three older ones to the race. That was really nice cause it was so peaceful and was not filled with a crying baby or a 4 yr old saying I have to go potty, I have to go potty-LOL! So we got home at like 11:00 and the boys had a ball game at 10 Saturday morning. Mama brought the two little ones and met us there, I was really starting to miss them.Anyway, so after the ball game we had two of the ball players come over. So that was two more mouths to feed which we really cannot tell a difference when we have company cause we already have to fix so muchfood. anyway, they spent the night and were gonna camp out and about 11:00 last night they came running in saying they heard coyote's and they would not go back out so then ended up sleeping in the boys room ! I was so exhausted last night. And of course Levi still woke up. Anyway, so they also went to church with us. Everyone had to have baths this morning and get ready, that was 7 kids to get ready, That was a adventure, but we made it to church ON TIME! The service was good, so we came home and the boys parents came and after we ate lunch we all took a nap lol. Then I had to go to town to get milk-of course but daddy kept all the kids which was great. Well so that has been our weekend so far. Very busy !!! I also got my book Saturday wrote by the Jeub family, it has been awsome so far of what I read.

This is meaning more and more to me each day!!!!

Behold, children are a gift of the Lord; the fruit of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, so are the children of one's youth. How blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them; they shall not be ashamed, when they speak with their enemies in the gate. Psalm 127:3-5

NOt enough brain!

I have so much on my mind these days I cannot even think lol! I have our financial situation on my mind which is finally seeming to get a little better with help from my wonderful parents. And from God! I know God has a hand in all of it.
Then there is a strong conviction I feel that we are not done having kids. I feel this is from God and this has really been on my heart. As well as my issue with taking birth control! I really feel so guilty every night when I have to take it cause of some of the research I have done on it.With our financial situation though I really worry about not taking it and trying some kind of natural family planning. I know God does not put any child here that is not meant to be here but I am just so confused, And my parents would FREAK if they even knew this was something i was even thinking of. I have talked with many people on this subject and of course everyone has their own opinion about birth control and things like that. I have read some Bible verses and really got out of them that you should trust God about conceiving kids. It really feels good to just get it out all though and i have now told Billy all of this. He did not do much commenting on it though and I plan to ask him how he feels today. I wanted to give him some time to think about it.
In other news we are gonna finish up school this week but the kids will be doing some homeschool during the summer as well, Things like writing ,reading ,and some math(mostly math games). That is about it for my news. I have to go get the troups in motion so we can get school done,.

Update on things

First I will update you on how hubby is doing. Billy seems to be doing better his eyes just get red alot ,especially at night, Makes me nervous everytime I see them red like that cause that is how it all started. But so far he seems to be better. Praise the Lord. Hope he continues to do well. Now we just have to pay those medical bills.
Levi will be 4 months old next weekend!! My how time flies. He is a real needy baby. He doesn't sleep much and when he is not sleeping he wants me. I love watching him smile and coo though. Makes all the tiredness I feel melt away.
Paige is growing so fast into a young lady. She is doing better with some of her behavior and we spent some time together while the boys fished Saturday and the smaller kids slept.
Dylan and Dustin have a ball game tonight. Dustin is doing great in baseball,he is our sports fanatic while Dylan is a book worm. Strange how twins can be so different. Dylan got his legs burnt while fishing saturday poor thing and his asthma is really bothering him this morning. He caught two fish while fishing while dustin did not catch any but that is because Billy said Dustin would not keep his hook in the water. He kept reeling it in-lol, sounds just like him.
Brittani oh Brittani. She is very demanding these days also. We are working with respect and stuff with her and not hollering when she wants something but asking polietly. She is a 4 yr old with tons of energy. REminds me so much of her daddy every time I look at her.
WEll and me I am as stressed as ever but trying not to be. Things do seem to be getting better but everytime I think that something happens. i just have to trust in the Lord. I know this!! Oh and I am still trying to get the make up stuff to take off saleing really good. Maybe soon! WEll that is a little update .

My little work from home thing

Well the make up thing is going prett ywell. Had a few sales and such. Of course I need to have more than a few people to make it to where I want to be but we all have tostart somewhere. Just wanted to let you all know that they are having a 50% sale on over stocked items and have added some new items as well. Thanks for the support!

A little at a time

Things seem to be getting better a little at a time. I feel the Lord is telling me something but I am wondering how in the world I will ever be able to do it or to talk it over with Billy. I know each person has a gift and that we are all here for a purpose and I feel like God is showing me my purpose even if it is scaring me to death. Today has went pretty good. Brittani got a cavity filled today and she did AWSOME!! Then after that we had to go get some groceries which is always fun with all 5 kids but it got acomplished and now I am just trying to get the house straightened and then it will be time to cook supper . I am going for simple tonight. Hot dogs and smilie face french fries. Tommorrow and Friday will not be too busy but we do have baseball games both those days. Dustin is so hoping to pitch. Thanks to many of you who read this but DO NOT comment here but email me for all the encouragement and everything. YOu girls are the best! Also everyone do not forget to check out the new make up I am selling and if you are interested in selling it let me know and I will explain it all to ya. Hugs to you all!

Glory to God!!!!!!!!!!! Have faith

I just had wrote the other blog about giving it to God when the mail woman came and knocked on our door. There was a heavy box and you will never guess what was inside!! Books for next years school. I heard of this place called Samaritian books where if you are a struggling homeschool family they will try and help you. SO I wrote them a letter and told them all we were going thru and the grades the kids were in . I never really expected to hear anything . Well in that box was Saxon math, s.s,reading books, hands on math with the stuff to do it with!!!!!!!!!!!!!! English books and other math. Great books!!! SO that is one HEAVY weight lifted off my shoulder, WE have mostly now what we need for next years school. :)

ONE PROUD MOMMA!!!

One of my twins got to pitch last night in their baseball game. My other twin is awsome in school and things like that so it was nice to get to see the other twin shine some. He so needs it!!! I was so proud of him and we ended up winning our game last night like 19 to 7. Things have been less stressful today just cause i have just been trying to give it all to God and let things happen that are suppose to happen. I have a wonderful family and so in that aspect I am very rich. I am trying to start a home business from home so check it out . CLick on the thing on my side bar. Have a blessed day :)

my weekend!

The weekend went pretty good. Friday I went to a mother/daughter banquet with my mother,sister,and my girls(and with levi,lol). It was a nice time. Then Saturday my wonderful mom kept our kids so Billy and I could have some time together alone. That was also very nice., Then Sunday we went to church, then to my mil's,then to my moms. It was a nice Mother's DAy. The kids are very tired this morning and not wanting to get going. IT is already almost 10:00 and they haven't even ate breakfast!!!! WE have school today and the boys have a baseball game tonight at 6:00. We have a game tonight, Thursday and Friday. UGH, busy week. Brittani has to get a tooth filled Wendsday also. I absoulutely loved the sermon yesterday at church but it just made me more confused on how I feel about birth control. Anyway, I gotta go.

Just wanted to share this!

Not really sure who wrote this! I got this off a website I go to and it just brought me to tears!!!



Capture the Moment

The baby is teething, the children are fighting, and my husband just called and said to eat dinner without him. Okay, one of these days you'll shout, "Why don't you grow up and act your age?"

. . . and they will.

Or, "You guys get outside and find yourself something to do and don't slam the door."

. . . and they won't.

You'll straighten up their bedrooms all neat and tidy with bumper stickers discarded, bed-spread tucked and smoothed, toys all displayed on the shelves, hangers in the closets, animals caged, and you'll say out loud, "Now I want you to stay this way!"

. . . and they will.

Then you'll prepare a perfect dinner with a salad that hasn't been picked to death, a cake with no finger traces through the frosting, and you'll say, "Now there's a meal for company."

. . . but you'll eat it alone.

And you'll say, "I want complete privacy on the phone! No dancing around, no pantomimes, no demolition crews! Silence! Do you hear me?"

. . . and you'll have it.

No more plastic tablecloths stained with spaghetti, no more anxious nights under a vaporizer tent, no more dandelion bouquets, no more iron-on patches, no more wet-knotted shoe strings, no more tight boots, or rubber bands on pony tails.

Now, imagine your lipstick with a point. No baby sitter on New Year's Eve. Washing clothes only once a week. No PTA meetings, no car pools, no blaring radios, having your own roll of tape, no more Christmas presents made out of toothpicks and paste, no more wet-oatmeal kisses, no tooth fairy, no giggles in the dark, no knees to Band-aid.

Only a memory of a voice crying, "Why don't you grow up?"

And in the silence will come the echo, "I did."

Time to get busy!!!

ALthough it is not like I don't have enough going on but it is time for me to help my husband make some money so we can get out of this hole we are in and move towards the things we want. WE do not have huge dreams just small ones. I have tried to just put this in God's hands and let things work out thru his will. The kids have been acting alot better the past couple days so that makes me excited. Although the boys have already got taught the lesson that friends are not always gonna be there for ya. So I had the chat with them last night that friends may not always be there and that is why they need to get along cause when they grow up they will be the best friends each other has!! I am trying to figure out what to do and what to sale to help bring in some money. I am going to start with the make up and see how it does and then if it doesn't go so well might also add in selling some candles called Mia Bella candles. I just need to help hubby with our money issues right now and me working outside the home would not work. I mean I am sure it would work some how but I would never get any sleep and he wants me at home. TOnight the boys have a baseball game so we have that going on and then tommorrow night I have a mother / daughter banquet to go to with my mother and my girls( and poor Levi has to tag along) and I think my sister so I am looking forward to that. Anyway, have a blessed day and check out the make up . Click on the thing on my side bar. :)

Interesting!!!!

http://www.parentdish.com/2007/02/05/rumor-another-duggar-pregnancy/

copy and paste- very interesting!

Weird things happen around here-lol

I was making my laundry detergent and looked outside and our rooster who wanders around the yard like a dog was eating some CHICKEN!!!!!! Can you believe that??? HAHAHA- That is just totally not right.
In other news Brittani got her shots today. 4 of them!!!!!! She actually did really well. I am proud of my big girl. Tommorrow she has to go have a tooth filled -ugh!!!!
I am still trying to find some kind of work from home job that is right for me. I would love to keep doing ebay but I just cannot keep enough stuff to sell. I just really am not sure what to do. SOrt of feel lost on this one. WELl that is about it for today.

WEll.....

Life hasn't been much better to us but I know it could be worse. Billy spent most of the weekend trying to fix the van's bumper to make it look okay since we will not be able to afford to fix it. Our roof has been leaking some too so he has that to figure out and then when I was getting ready for church yesterday morning my hair dryer tore up. I just wanted to scream!!! Billy and I got into a huge argument last night , I knew it was coming, WE are both so stressed. Anyway, I asked my mom if she could keep the kids for a little while next Saturday so we can try to rekindle some of our spark for each other. We really need it. I have found a bunch of things I want to order for the kids next year for school but right now no funds to do it. Hopefully things will turn around for us soon!!! I pray they do. WEll that is about it, nothing exciting here to share. Oh well yes there is . Brittani went to her first birthday party this weekend all by herself. We dropped her off at 11:00 and picked her up at 1:00. She had tons of fun but she was ready to come home i think. While she was at the party Billy,me,and the other kids went walking on the dam. That was sort of nice!!

Okay a positive post

I am so tired of making post that are so depressing so I am gonna blog some positive things. NO things have no gotten better for us and my daughter has to have braces which are gonna cost us $1,900 but I am so glad and blessed to have a daughter to put braces on. I have so much to be thankful for!!! I pray things turn around for us and I know God has his own plans for us whatever they may be. He has blessed me so many times and helped me thru tons of trials and things that many people do not even know I have gone thru.I have really struggled from the time I was 16 and had my twin sons but I know God was always there with me or else I would never made it out of the hole I was in. I have a husband who loves me now and 5 kids ! ALthough they have been terrible this week all in all they are great kids. And if you sit back and just watch kids you just have to smile. I was at my sister's house cause she kept three of the kids while I took my oldest daughter to the dentist and when I got back we ate lunch at her house. But after lunch my nephew turned to my daughter and said I love you Brittani and my daughter looked at him and said I love you too Josiah. NOw what a blessing that is to hear two cousins be so sweet with each other. I do not know what the future holds for my husband or I but for some reason today it doesn't seem so bleak and worrisome. HOpefully, I can find some kind of home business that will help us or something. I have had so many people that know what we are going thru say well why don't you just put the kids back in school so you can get a job. WELl just cause we are struggling does not mean Iam gonna jepordize how my kids are raised and their self esteem. Plus I do have a infant son who needs me also. BEing my children's mom and teacher IS MY JOB! Being Billy's wife IS MY job. I do not get paid cash for this job but I do get paid in so many other ways and yes this means that my husband and I do not get the finer things in life but we have both decided our children come first. My husband is a hard worker and I am so thankful I have him. He is a great man. Yes he gets really stressed but I know he worries alot. But I know together we will make it thru! WE have already been thru so much.

ALL I CAN SAY IS AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

Okay so yesterday my husband called me a few times during work. He was not having the best of days then on the way home he called and said this is not a good day. I said why. Well he had rear-ended someone on the interstate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He did not hurt the jeep(thank goodness)that the person was in but it did hurt my van. They decided just to go on cause since the other vehicle was not hurt that person did not care and Billy did not want our insurance to go up. SO now I need a new bumper for my van. :( It just does not let up on us. And yes I know I know it could of been alot worse. I know this. My stress level is thru the roof I tell ya that. Today he goes back to the eye doctor as well so I will update you all on that. If there is anything to update on, I am not sure doctor's know much of anything. Sorry but we have been thru it with doctor's. But anyway, I just wanna say Thank God for my kids and my husband and the wonderful family I have. Even though I have no money I am rich in other ways.