Giving our fertility to the Lord

I hope this post is not a bunch a babble and comes out the way I want it to. Recently my husband and I have decided to leave our fertility to the Lord. While this is not a common choice these days I believe this is the way God intended. I have come a long way from the person I used to be. Let me back up. I will try to make a very long story short. When I was 16 I got pregnant with twins. My parents had raised me in a christian home, the were Sunday school teachers as I was growing up and my daddy a deacon in our church. I was raised in church but got caught up in trying to fit in. I married that father of the twins(big mistake). He was very abusive. Somehow I got pregnant with the twins were only 13 months old with my daughter. God knows why and I could not imagine my life without my daughter now but back then I just could not understand it. I was in a very abusive relationship. I will not get into all I went through cause frankly my family reads this and it would just be too heartbreaking/. But skip a few years, I had divorced my 3 children's father even though I really never believed in divorce but I DO NOT and still do NOt belive to this day God would of wanted me to stay in that relationship. I do however belive all of that I went through was for a reason. Anyway, after all that in 2001 I was getting very wild. So far from God and my beliefs. I was at a club and met my now husband. We were both going down very wrong roads. I belive that God put us there that night and meant for us to met. Anyhow , we married 2 weeks after meeting each other. Crazy I know and my family had to be thinking I had totally lost my mind. But he is the greatest person ! He and I have been through so very much together and made it through only stronger. We have went through alot with my ex at the beginning, my husband adopting my 3 children, a miscarriage which was just heartbreaking, complications from that miscarriage, terrible sickness with my husband,etc... Anyway, in 2003 we finally had our first child together and then in 2007 had another child. I was going to get my tubes tied with our last child and then something just kept pulling at my heart strings so we both decided it was not the thing to do. Then after our son was born my husband was suppose to get a vasectomy but just never went and did it. Then when our son was only a few months I felt a strong conviction from the Lord about birth control. I read up on it and found out horrible things about early abortions and on and on. We talked about it and I got off birth control. Then we were using other forms if you get what I mean but I still did not feel that was right so we talked about it but my husband was not so sure so we still used that form. Then after that we were gonna use NFP . During this time my husband went on a mens retreat with my bil's church. He came back a totally different man,. Still not sure where the man that left that day is. LOL AFter that we decided to give everything to the Lord. Our fertility and everything. I felt such a peace when my husband felt the same way. While this is the not the popular road or the easiest road this we feel is what God designed for women and men, man and wife to live like. WE are now expecting our 6th child due the first of September. I do not know what the Lord has in store for us but through his strength we can get through anything.

Oh The Joy's of Pregnancy

My I am sooooooooooooo tired!!!! I have insomnia and have had it for a week now. It is just crazy. I finally got to sleep around 3 am and then the baby was up. I have felt so bad today but it was because I am just so tired. Then on top of that my back is killing me for some reason. NOt sure what that is from. I have never had that problem till the end when I have the big belly and you know why your back is hurting. I am thankful no throwing up but things do make me nauseous. This pregnancy is already different than my last. It is amazing I have been pregnant many times and they have all been so different. Anyhow, I accept these symptoms as they call them cause I know it probably means baby is developing well. So excited to be blessed with another blessing so soon. NOw I need a nap lol!
Birthday parties went great yesterday. WE had lots of guest and I think the kids had fun. So now my baby boy is offically 1 and since it is 4 pm my oldest daughter is offically 9 cause she was born at 4. My where does the time go! :(
There was so much more I wanted to blog about today but my mind is so tired. I know I wanted to ask if there is any other quiverfull minded ladies out there that are reading my blog. It would be great to get to talk to you, not many around here so sometimes that gets ya down when people look at like you have 5 heads when you tell them your beliefs. So many people have asked us this time was this baby a oops, were you are birth control., etc.... WEll I am getting off here right now cause all the kids are playing nicely and baby is sleeping so I am gonna relax on the couch for a bit. Have a blessed night

Birthday parties and my baby turning one

:( :( Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I cannot believe my baby boy will be one Sunday! It has went by so fast. I cannot believe it, he is so much fun to have around. He thinks he is bigger than he is, Not walking yet but he is pulling up on everything. He is so precious. Hubby, the kids and I just love him to pieces. He will be very jelous of the new baby coming in September I am sure but will also but in awe of the baby too, He takes everything in. He wants to be right in the middle of everything.
We are having his and my daughter's bday party together. My oldest daughter was born on my moms birthday and then I had our baby boy 15 minutes from their bday. We are having my moms bday tonight and then I am combining our daughter's and son's bday together Sunday. I am super excited cause Wal-MArt is making a cake where they are doing one half Hannah Montana and one half Cars. And he even gets his own bday cake free. How great is that. We are expecting to have a house full so my weekend will be cleaning up for it. I cannot believe my daughter is turning 9 and my baby boy 1!!!!!!!!! EEK! Then in march we have the twins bday and they will be 11(WOW!!!!!) and 4 days after that our youngest daughter will be turning 5. Really where does the time go.

Homeschooling

I wonder if all homeschool moms are like me. You have a up and down mood where you are like if all the kids get out of this is to love God and grow up to be able to take care of their families I am fine. Then the next minute you are worried they are not learning and that they do not know what other children their age know. Paige is in 3rd grade so she needs to test this year. I think that is what has gotten me to thinking alot. It is not like anyone is really gonna see it except the person that grades it. Sometimes through the choas of our life i wonder if they are learning all I want them to. I sometimes wonder if I should stick with a boxed curriculum also and not pick and choose myself. Alot of this is probably hormones too. We got everything done in school today and are now doing chores but I do want to get a little more done tommorrow than we did today. I think the holidays mess us up to. But I guess in the end if all they learn is to love and trust God and how to raise a family in the end that is enough. :)

My first appt !!!!!!!!!!

It went really well. I liked the midwife. although there are three in that practice and my next visit I see a different one but I am sure they probably all are very nice. She did a ultrasound and I feel SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better. IT is ONE baby(think hubby was a little dissappointed ) and we actually got to see the heartbeat which was so nice! Thank you Jesus! When I miscarried there never was a heartbeat the whole 12 weeks so this made me feel so good. My uterine lining is thick which is good. I am 6 weeks to day so my due date is September 15th. I feel so relieved and am so glad to know things seem to be doing well now. God is good! Even though it is a little bean when I saw that tiny bean and the heartbeat(heatbeat was bigger than baby lol) my heart just melted all over. Pregnancy is trully a miracle. Us a society needs to rethink how we view babies. They are blessings NOT curses. I am so happy to be expecting another blessing. Just wanted to share with you all that were following along. Thanks for any and all prayers and big hugs to you all.

My

first appt with my new midwife is MOnday in the morning. I am hoping she will make me feel a bit better about things, Hopefully she will do a ultrasound so I can know if I am just having one baby or two (since my hormone level was so high) and also that I am not farther along than I think I am. ALso that everything is okay with the pregnancy. If I could know these things then I don't need to see another doctor till it is time to know the sex of the baby lol!!
In other news the snow we got the other night was soooooooooooooo pretty. WE are hoping to see some more today God willing. Maybe I need to do a snow dance. WEll that is about it for today. Maybe i will have more to blog on later on. Just the same old same old here. So what is going on with my friends out in blog land???

P.S. My husband's business is picking up tons ,. I trully praise the Lord for this. I got really worried cause he got real slow but now he is getting phone calls and a good bit of work. Thank you Jesus

So busy lately

IT seems we stay so busy lately, I feel I am not getting everything done but I guess you just have to let some stuff go. The boys have been working with their dad alot this week which is good cause that means work is picking up. IT got really slow and I got really worried but I know the Lord will provide . He always does! I have been trying to keep their school work up even though we have all been so busy and I have been super tired with this pregnancy. I am 5 weeks now . I have a appt with a midwife on MOnday so I am excited about that, MAybe they will do a ultrasound cause i will be 6 weeks then, then we can see if everything is okay , to be sure there is just one, and to make sure I am not farther along than I think I am. But between all of this we have been having basketball games. AHHHHHHHHH!!! Yesterday my sister found out what she is having but I am not gonna spill it cause I am sure there is some she has not gotten to tell yet. Another healthy blessing is what really matters though. Well just thought I would drop in. I feel like all I do is babble every time I blog, I think with every pregnancy I lose brain cells. Wonder how many I got left lol?

thanks!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for all the encouragement I have received ! I just have to say I am in awe of the wonderful ladies I have met through my blog and other places . today was also a awsome day at church so I feel pretty good. And also my hubby's business has been really slow and seems to be picking up so I give God all the glory for that. Thank you Lord!!!!

Just a little rambling

I do not know if it is my hormones or what but I have been thinking about a little of everything today. First I have been thinking about how hard it is to really be a stay at home mom that also homeschools cause you really have not that many friends. Of course sometimes that is good because your heart does need to be in the home but you know what I mean. I am very thankful to have my sister. We have not always been close but Iam super thankful to the Lord for us being close now . Without her suppport somedays I would feel I had none. I also do not understand why people feel the need to comment when things are none of their business. WE have not told many we are expecting again because we just found out and I am so early along but we have ALREADY got negative comments. WE already heard many times so you ARE gonna get fixed this time right. Well no. No,why? Because the Lord told me to be fruitful and multiply. My husband and I have grown so much in our faith but I feel we have so much more to learn. WE are still baby christians in my opinion. So when the word starts their negativity and wordly comments sometimes you rethink if you are doing the right thing, But I KNOW we are ! Just like I know we are doing what we should homeschooling the kids, Afterall we are their first teacher.IF any of your read this and you are a homeschooling mommy God knows you get frustrated, he knows sometimes you get lonely even if you have a housefull, he knows you feel stretched, he knows all this and he also will bless you greatly for following HIs will . Maybe, I am trying to tell myself this I don't know. Maybe all of this is making no sense to anyone else but me and I am just babbling. That is okay too. GOd bless each and every one of you who read my blog . And thank GOd for all the blessings he gives us. Thank you God for blessing us with a pregnancy. May this new year be the best one yet!!!!!!!

Surprise!!!!!

WE are expecting #6!!!!!!!!!! I should be due around Sept 16th. will keep this updated as much as I can! Just wanted to share with you all.

And I do not think I have shared with you all that my sister is expecting!!!! If so I am telling ya again hehe! She is due first of june. Cannot wait to find out what she is having. She finds out next week if baby cooperates. HOping for ...........................well hoping for a girl for her.................. but a healthy baby overall!!!!!!!

Happy New Year

Here is to hoping this year is filled with loving memories and healthy times. WE have had a sick baby for a while now and he is finally getting better so I am very happy about that. Thanks to any and all that were praying. Just wanted to wish everyone a happy new year. WOW! 2008 where does the time go