Well... first I want to warn this may be a bunch of rambling as I am sleep deprived and there is alot going on around the house right now with 7 children . But I feel led to write this post.
First I want to say I could not be happier with the addition of our 7th blessing just a little over a week ago. She is doing well for those that are keeping up and growing everyday. I could not imagine my life any other way and thank God daily for my wonderful kids and husband. While life is not always peaches and cream around here and our kids are not always little angels like some might think it is our life and I am so thankful for each and every moment.
We have not always thought the way we do now. IN fact when I was younger I knew a couple of families that had 6 or 7 kids and though in fact the woman had lost her mind. There was just no way. And then after having my twins at age 16 my thoughts towards children slowly changed, and I do mean slowly. Especially after I got pregnant on birth control when the twins were only 13 months old. After having the twins I realized every child has a purpose and even though they may not be planned they are here for a reason. And btw- it also taught me not to judge others because we all fall and all make mistakes and sin.... that is a different story. Then when I met my prince charming and we got married I promised he that we would have one or two more children(he adopted my first three, maybe a story for another time). After having our darling daugther I thought she might be our last. Two girls and two boys, everyone said how perfect that was. Then we had our next child which was a son about 4 yrs later. That is around the time things started changing for us with our beliefs. We had started changing our lives more, going to church more, doing a bible study,etc..... While pregnant with my son we had decided I would get my tubes tied, then things started coming up about the side effects,etc... so we decided against that and that my husband would get a vasectomy after our son was born. When the time came for that it just did not seem right to me and I had started being led to verses of how children are a blessing and I was being led to sites where women were leaving their fertility to God and he was providing for them, it was amazing to me. So I told my husband I did not want him to get fixed and he was a bit surprised but he was even more surprised the day I told him we should leave our fertility to the Lord. He was hesitant and unsure. While he had gave his business to the Lord(he is self employed) this was a bit more scary. He went on a mens retreat and came back and was totally renewed and changed. A little bit after that he agreed we should give it to the Lord. A little bit after Christmas we found out I was pregnant again, while we were a bit shocked, scared, etc... it was a joyful surprise but we did have a 6 month old so it a bit of getting used to. Then we had our next son. Our 6th child. And everyone's favorite thing to say to us was that they hoped we were done, is that enough yet,etc... We still felt convicted and when our son was 3 months almost 4 months we found out we were expecting again. while the reactions we got were mixed we did not care, we feel like we are doing what God called us to do. We are trying to raise arrows for his glory and honor. And now the 17th of this month our beautiful baby daugther as born. I could not be happier and I do feel the Lord blessing us . NO it is not always easy but it is worth it. Do I know what the future holds, no. But I do not know I want to do what I feel convicted by the Lord to do. Society today sees children as curses, burdens, that they take up too much room, too much air, cost too much money, etc.... You hear it all. But I know my children are here for a reason each and every one of them and they all have a purpose.
It really saddens me the comments we get sometimes , people are so caught up in themselves. Makes me want to say well at least ALLLLLL my kids have manners. Some people make out like we have 40 kids, they look at us like we have two heads. WE get comments from do you own a tv to you do know what causes that don't you. It is insane. And the latest was from a assistant at my midwife's that saw me one day, she asked me if I had a brain. It used to make me really mad at the comments we would get but now I just feel so sorry for the people making them. They have no clue what a blessing children are. Anyway, I hope I made some sense and didn't just ramble. God bless you all.