Okay I am embarrased to say I have been to the hospital again, I went Wensday afternoon. My contractions had gotten to 3 1/2 to 5 minutes apart and were lasting longer . Anyway, to make a long story short they said I had not change. Actually they were busy with 3 fixing to have babies so they sort of rushed me out. She said I was 30% effaced and they said I was 50% two days before that. Also the nurse said my cervix was not really favorable for labor when over a week ago I was told it was. And on and on. She didn't really take the time to really check me, sort of hurried. Said I was contracting but they were irregular , um how do you know they are irregular when I was not on the machine longer than 5 minutes. Anyway, so then I called my midwives office the next morning and told them I wanted a appt and would like to see a midwife to talk to her about all of this. 2 of the 3 midwifes are off this week and the 1 that is there broke her leg not too long ago and is not up to par yet and she was already double booked but they told me they would talk to her and see what they could do. I said okay, I just do not really want to deliver at home because ifI was gonna do that I would of prepared to deliver at home. They never called me back yesterday, still have heard nothing!!!!!!!!!!I have a appt monday but who wants to try to go over the weekend with the unknown. I am so frustrated and feel like I am on my own. I know they see pregnant women daily and that you do not need to be at the hospital unless you are in labor. But with me once I hit 5 cm or so I am gone! And it takes us over a hour to get there .
I had to go to Wal Mart this morning and now I am so sore. I just want to cry. Issac got up at 4:30 and didn't want to go back to sleep so I got up with him for a bit , he finally went back to sleep. Then I was up again around 8 or so. I am just miserable, and I know it is this way at the end but I have so much pressure down there and my back feels like someone is pinching it constantly. Please pray for me, I am just exhausted. Please pray I make it to the hospital when it is time. Please pray I finally make some progress. I have been 3 cm( although i really think I was more than that when I went Wendsday) for over a week now. And the contractions are so harsh.
I know today is September 11th, let us know forget those people who lost their lives on that day 8 years ago. And we need to make sure we pray for our country on this day also and really everyday.