Struggling

That is what I feel like lately. I just feel like I am struggling with everything. I stay so exhausted. I am struggling because I believe we should leave things up to the Lord including our fertility but then my health has really went downhill this time with this pregnancy. It just has not been as easy, may be cause I am having a girl too. I tend to have a harder time with girls. Dh and I have decided we will probably use Natural Family Planning this time around and chart and go by that, he also mentioned barrier methods too. He has just been worried about my health. Of course I am too but I know God will provide me strength but maybe it is his will for us to use these methods to hopefully keep from having another baby so soon and give my body a rest. I don't know with hormones you just really do not know how you feel about decisions you make but I do have to honor what my husband wants.
We just recently got tv back and go it back through something called Sky Angel tv. It is really nice and Christian centered. It mostly has all christian channels but also the Hallmark Channel, Fox News, The Weather Channel, and some sports channels. It is so depressing anymore to watch Fox News though . It is so sad how our country is getting further and further from what this country was founded on and the beliefs in which our Founding Fathers believed. I am so tired right now so I won't go into a full rant but just wanted to mention how crazy things have become. All I can say to other like minded Christians is you need to get out and witness, something I need to start doing more of myself.
Tommorrow is my little man's 1 yr birthday party, my where in the world did the year go. He will actually be 1 on the 26th. He is so sweet and has the sweetest smile but he is strong willed like my 2 yr old and my husband lol. so needless to say I will be super busy again tommorrow but it is for a good cause. :)
Thanks to those that follow my blog and please leave me a comment or something. I could use some encouragement these days. Trying to stay positive but sometimes I wonder if the devil is trying to get at me or something. Pray for my husband, his health has not been very good lately and we just spent tons of money this week for them to tell us all the testing looked good and normal. while that is refreshing to hear he doesn't have anything awful we are still back to where we were at wondering what is wrong with him and now out all that money. Also pray that he will get some calls, he has had no work. He painted a room at my parents house that my mom wanted him to for some money, if we would of not had that then he would of had nothing this week. Please also pray for my health and for the health of our unborn blessing. Please leave me any prayer request you might have also. I would love to pray for you also.