First I wanna say sorry I kinda went MIA. We got the big C word the week before Christmas and well let's just say it threw my husband and I for a loop.
Anyhow, let's get back on topic. I have been wanting to write this for a VERY long time but never enough time to just sit down and do it. But, I'm gonna do it even if it takes me days to write out.
When I first became a mom I was 16!( Looking at my kids around that age I feel how my mother must of felt.) But everything I did from that day on was what I thought best for my children. Has it always been right? No, but as parents we know there are no instructions on how to raise these kids. I had a very horrible experience with being a first time mom for MANY reasons but my children have always been viewed as a blessing. My first pregnancy was twins at 16 and their sister came almost 2 years later.
As time went on and I married my sweet husband we added more kids(10 more to be exact). And I poured myself into all my kids. When my 3 older ones were just in 1st and 3rd grade we pulled them out of public school and started homeschooling and never looked back. I lost myself somewhere along the way. Especially when we joined a church where the woman were taught as mothers you act a certain way so God will love you. So I tried to be that woman for my husband and my children. But it wasn't really me.
Not until after having our last and almost not making it did I wake up and say to myself stop being what everyone else wants you to be and just be you! I no longer follow rules but rather personal convictions. I'm sure I'm frowned upon by some but that's ok. I only have to answer to God and my husband. The freedom I feel is intense at times. I just wanna be myself. So yes, you might see me driving my jeep jamming to some music with a beat that you don't really approve of. But don't say oh my gosh she's a mom she shouldn't be acting like that. Say, you go girl, live this life. And there are other things I'm sure others would look down on and that's ok. I love the Lord. I love my children and am in absolute love with their daddy. But I'm gonna be who I am, tattoos, piercings, and all.
You are a good mom ESPECIALLY if you're teaching them that being yourself is ok. We don't have to hid who we are!!!!
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Thank you so much for commenting and saying that! Big hugs and here's to finding ourselves!
How is it going Crissy? 🤔
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