Falling away

Lately, I've just felt so defeated. I couldn't really put my finger on why but I just knew everywhere I look I feel like I can't keep up. But this morning I did my bible study, spent time praying, played praise and worship and you know what. That's it! That's why I can't keep up and am feeling defeated. I've taken my eyes off the Lord. I've been trying to do it all in my own strength.  I've been slowing falling away.
          The world can wrap up us in it so quickly we can barely find ourselves. Yes, I've still been having my prayer times but I've not had quality time with my precious Lord. And when we fall away of the help of our Father everything seems huge.
        Grace is so beautiful. I prayed God would show me where to go in the bible this morning. And sure enough it was exactly what I needed. So not only am I'm gonna do better about taking care of the mundane but also taking care of myself. Taking care of myself means taking care to keep my relationship with the Lord first and foremost. Where our treasure is our heart is also!
        My children also deserve my priorities to be in the right place. If my relationship with the Lord is right I'm a much better wife and mother. So , today I'm starting to challenge myself. No matter when or how I get it I'm gonna make time with my Lord. Each day that might look different with a full household but that's ok.