soooooooooooo frustrating

Okay I am embarrased to say I have been to the hospital again, I went Wensday afternoon. My contractions had gotten to 3 1/2 to 5 minutes apart and were lasting longer . Anyway, to make a long story short they said I had not change. Actually they were busy with 3 fixing to have babies so they sort of rushed me out. She said I was 30% effaced and they said I was 50% two days before that. Also the nurse said my cervix was not really favorable for labor when over a week ago I was told it was. And on and on. She didn't really take the time to really check me, sort of hurried. Said I was contracting but they were irregular , um how do you know they are irregular when I was not on the machine longer than 5 minutes. Anyway, so then I called my midwives office the next morning and told them I wanted a appt and would like to see a midwife to talk to her about all of this. 2 of the 3 midwifes are off this week and the 1 that is there broke her leg not too long ago and is not up to par yet and she was already double booked but they told me they would talk to her and see what they could do. I said okay, I just do not really want to deliver at home because ifI was gonna do that I would of prepared to deliver at home. They never called me back yesterday, still have heard nothing!!!!!!!!!!I have a appt monday but who wants to try to go over the weekend with the unknown. I am so frustrated and feel like I am on my own. I know they see pregnant women daily and that you do not need to be at the hospital unless you are in labor. But with me once I hit 5 cm or so I am gone! And it takes us over a hour to get there .
I had to go to Wal Mart this morning and now I am so sore. I just want to cry. Issac got up at 4:30 and didn't want to go back to sleep so I got up with him for a bit , he finally went back to sleep. Then I was up again around 8 or so. I am just miserable, and I know it is this way at the end but I have so much pressure down there and my back feels like someone is pinching it constantly. Please pray for me, I am just exhausted. Please pray I make it to the hospital when it is time. Please pray I finally make some progress. I have been 3 cm( although i really think I was more than that when I went Wendsday) for over a week now. And the contractions are so harsh.
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Hospital visit yesterday

So yesterday I thought my water was trickling, not neccassarily broke but maybe just leaking so they told me to come in to the hospital. I did . Water had no broken. I was dilated 3 cm internally, and 5 cm on the outside . I am having contractions but they are just not super intense yet. THey had my walk for a hour and then checked me again, not much change was made so we went home. :( My contractions have been different today, more painful I would say . NOt just the tightening but shooting pain with them. So who knows, maybe it will be today and maybe it will be another week, although I doubt it. I also have shooting pain down my leg. Please pray I can just get through all the wondering and that I will know when it is time to go. THis is my 7th child but they have all been so different. My sunday school class is giving me a small shower tonight so maybe I will make it through that. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers.

Getting close

Well for those that are following I am now 36 weeks and a half. I went to my midwife monday and was dilated 2 cm. This has been a really hard week. With contractions and pain and just plain exhaustion but I have been trying to make it to at least 37 weeks. Also my husband had some jobs he had to get done. AFter today I am good to go though lol. I did not sleep hardly at all last night and my tummy is messed up again. I think that if I do not get to feeling better after I go to town today I may see if my mom can come sit with my kids so I can go be checked again. I don't know. I really do not want to go before tommorrow night though and I wonder if checking me will just help things along. anyway, I am going now to take a nice warm bath. will try to keep everyone updated.

The world around us

I am so tired of hearing about this healthcare but then on the otherhand we need to listen up. I am just so sick of our government trying to take our rights away and while I would love change this is not change for the better no matter what "they" tell us. IF you just watch our rights our being taken away slowly and slowly, especially those of Christians. I am not making a hate speech like alot of political leaders would like to lead the country to believe that if anyone disagrees with them it is hate speech I am just speaking from my heart. The thing that concerns me with all of this is the future of my children! It should concern you as well. What will happen if the dept of this country keeps rising and our rights keep getting taken away. What will happen to them if our freedom of speech keeps getting shut down , and the morals of our founding fathers are forgotten. HOw sad is it that we forget what this country was founded on and even sadder is how we treat each other. We all need to wake up, we need to take a stand together and fight for our children's future. and for their children's future. When our churches cannot even stay together this day and age how do we expect our country to stick together and love each other. IT is time to pray and pray hard for our president, our congress, our government all together and for our country! Yes pray for our president weather you agree with him or not!!!!!!!

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Sad sad times

This week so far has been full of such sad news. It makes me wonder what this world is coming to and makes me pray for Jesus's return so much sooner. Makes me hold my family closer, makes me love my husband harder. Someone who i used to be best friends with that I still really respect is going through a divorce that she does not want and they have two small boys. It just saddens me to the core!! The husband wants it and she doesn't. I found this out this week. Also found out another couple is getting a divorce in our church. Both these couples have been married for many years. Why is this happening so much now??? IN my opinion it boils down alot to selfishness. WE want the easy way out or what we THINK is the easy way out. Alot of times couples one or the other or both just do not try and work things out. I just need to pray I know. And please pray for both these family. IT is so heartbreaking and shocking. And then on top of all that I found the guy that reroofed our house a few months back hung himself, he also has two small children and their mom has so issues so these children are left alone. I mean how incrediable sad. Why in this society are we so selfish??? What do we blame it on??? i know many are not right with God, how could you be to cause so much hurt and pain to your family. And why do so many these days feel they have no option. IT is just so sad to me. That is why I tell my kids you never know when you reach out what it means to that person. You never know what it may mean to that person at that very moment. I think that shows we need to reach out more, witness more, and love more!!!! in the midst of such happy times for my family with a new baby coming soon the way the world is moving towards such chaos is so sad and heartbreaking. Please pray, reach out and most important love your neighbor!!!!!!!!!!!!